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Jun. 30th, 2004

Jun. 26th, 2004

Jun. 22nd, 2004

09:45 pm - Hey People...

Hey today was...cool for lack of a better word. I went up to school today to finish up the last of my service hours for the court thing. I left that, then I went to Stefan's house for some good old lacrosse time. His sister took us up to Taco Bell and bought us tacos. Then I left came back home, chilled for a lil bit. Then I went out w/ Matt H. to go lift w/ him and Jason. We went to Pep boys first to see the rims he's gonna order for his car. Then Jason rolled up and I saw his new car. It's really nice. Then Matt wanted to go to best buy, so we went up there; and I almost crashed cause some dick head cut me off. He pulls into the best buy parking lot and I wanted to just go up to him and cuss him out. Then we went into best buy and my supervisor was trying to get me to come into work, but I really didn't feel like coming in, so I told him I'd think about it( I didn't end up going in). After that me, kahn and matt went up to taco bell to meet up w/ jeremy smith and some other peoplez. Hung out there for a lil bit, then matt and I went to the mall. He got some food and we talked about stuff. We saw random people that we knew walk by, it was ok i guess. Then we left and went to kahn's house to finally lift. We lifted and now here I am telling you my life story. Aight, I'm out. Be easy peoplez.

Current Mood: contemplative

Current Music: Modest Mouse- Float on

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Jun. 16th, 2004

08:16 pm - Chill Wednesday...

I didn't have to go to work today, but somehow I had to wake up early as hell. I had to go up to Concord to help out w/ the guidance office, so I can get some service hours for when I got in trouble w/ Johnny Law; so I was there from like 8-2 today helping out. I called senor michael abraham to ask him if he still has his best buy shirt from when he worked there, cause I wanted it; because I've yet to get my own and i've been working there for weeks now. oh well. Lilley, I'm glad you like my references to you in the last name, I did it just for you. It's funny how people that were once "friends" grow apart in a very short time, like a week or two. I guess you don't really know who your true friends are until something like graduating or whatever occurs. To all the people I'm no longer "friends" w/ or with whom I don't speak to anymore, I wish you all the best of luck in all your endeavors; and for the brief time we knew each other, it was worth knowing you all. Uhhh...the offer to hang out still stands, perhaps not this week cause i'm gonna be busy; but there are definately openings for next week. Hey Lilley, how bout dat movie? I'm missing that good ol cuban company of your's. Ok, well i'm gonna go chillax for a lil bit, later days.

Current Mood: cranky

Current Music: Musiq- whoknows

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Jun. 12th, 2004

10:14 pm - Saturday...

I love my friends. I went to Amanda Bryden's graduation party, and brinker,pat, and lilley were there. It's always fun being around brinker and lilley, it reminds me of the good times of physics class. We had some random conversation, and gossiped about the events of senior week that I missed out on. It's always a good time over at the Bryden's house. I left around 7 and I called up Mickey. He was hanging out w/ Jason, Inga, and Kofi. They told me there were at blockbuster, so I drove up there to meet them. They rented Eurotrip, and we went back to mickey's house to watch it. It was a funny movie, "If you're not Manc, You're a Wank". I left after the movie and now here I am typing to you, letting you all in my bizness. Aight, if anyone truly wants to hang out this summer, just let me know and we'll make plans, seriously. Aight, i'm out. Later.

Current Mood: curious

Current Music: Ludacris- Throw dem bows

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Jun. 6th, 2004

08:36 pm - That's it....

Today was highschool graduation day. I was really nervous about it during the approaching hours before it. It was very surreal, I knew I was graduating, but didn't really believe it was actually happening. People always talk about how they're going to come back and say hey to everyone after highschool, but I couldn't pull it off. I have a feeling if I came back no one would really care, they'd just be like what are u doing here? I dunno. My brothers came down to see me on my glorious day, it was really cool hanging out w/ them. It's always a barrell of laughs when they're around. I didn't get to see Ms. Jen Morrone; ahh well maybe another time. Well, I'm gonna go chill or whatever. Later kids.

Current Mood: nostalgic

Current Music: Eve6- Here's to the night

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May. 31st, 2004

May. 26th, 2004

08:58 pm - All good things must come to an end...

Tommorrow is my last day of highschool ever. I have to go in for my physics final and then I'm done. I'm really excited, but nervous at the same time. I'm truly gonna miss the people I've had the wonderful pleasure of meeting over the past four years. I realized something the ohter day, I realize I probably won't see half the people I've met during highschool ever again. It's a sad but true thought. Thanks to everyone that has helped me have a good time in highschool. We've all had our rough patches during the year, but that's what makes the good times even more special. I'll always remember all the funny and crazy things that have happened over the years. Thank you to all my friends that were there for me when I was in one of my lil episodes, thanks for supporting me and giving me advice. I hope everyone has a good time tommorrow nite at prom, and be safe. I shall see some of you during the summer, and the rest at graduation. Long live the memory of the class of '04.

Current Mood: peaceful

Current Music: Elephant man ft. twista- Jook Gal

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May. 22nd, 2004

07:22 pm - ...Just take one last look....

Hey, I got my car back today, how about that. I went to the first round of the tournaments today to cheeer on my boys, we lost; we could've beaten that team, but I guess we weren't working together as a team, ahh well shit happens. That was the last game ever. The lax master Stefan Yohe came up to watch the game, he and I had a little catch on the sidelines; being that i'm still feeling the wrath of Marriotti from like wednesday, and I still can't run that well. It was hot as balls today, I'm lucky I didn't have to have all those pads on. St. Andrew's school is huge, being that it's a boarding school it has to be. Uhh...so two guys walk into a bar and...I'm gonna go find something to do tonite, later kids.

Current Mood: naughty

Current Music: Dashboard Confessionals- Hands down

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May. 17th, 2004

08:21 pm - Nitro biatch!!!

Yo, I went to six flags today for the physics trip. It was awesome. We did like all the rollercoasters twice. The best rollercoaster there was Nitro, the first drop on it was crazy as hell. It was the best day I've had in a while, just chilling w/ friends all day long and goofing off. Mickey was my bus buddy, so it was cool. He kept me entertained. No, I don't give a fuck if you think Mickey is sexy. Aight, just wanted to let ya'll know I had an awesome day. I'll talk to you later, peace kids.

Current Mood: bouncy

Current Music: Ricky Martin- She bangs

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May. 15th, 2004

09:06 pm - Went to a lacrosse game, and a boxing match broke out...

OMg, it was the Newark game was so crazy. Aight, it was like third quarter and we were kicking their ass by a bunch, rosaio goes for a ground ball, and another dude from the team goes for it also; Rosaio pushes the dude away to get him away from the ball, the guy grabs him in a head lock and starts punching him in head(helmet still on). Other guys from Concord that were on the field didn't want to fight, and were trying to break it up, the other guys from Newark go crazy and start punching everyone. The fight went on for like ten minutes, coach Killen goes over to help break it up; i'm on the sidelines flipping out cause I see kahn get punched and they have jason williams on the ground w/ three guys on top of him, Hoopes is screaming at us to keep us on the sidelines. Marriotti is told to hold zahn back before he goes over there. I hear that Killen got punched in the face, I flip out even more, and hoopes is yelling at me not to go over there. Ten years later the fight is broken up. It was a crazy ass day, and I felt so mad that I couldn't go over there and help my boys out. I can't really get in any more trouble though, cause if I do I'm going back to court again; and that's not happening. wooo insane day, aight i'm out. Later kids.

Current Mood: good

Current Music: A Perfect Circle- Judith

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May. 14th, 2004

08:45 am - Overdrive...

Hey kids, what up? No school today, that's what's up. I got a car two days ago, that's right I'm mobile. No I don't want to take your ass home. I have a game today vs. Newark, it shall be fun. Today is not as sunny as the other days this week. I have a feeling it may rain, but I hope not. I'm going to six flags on monday, I can't wait. I need to reschedule my orientation day for Best Buy though, I don't like when my dad schedules appointments for me, without letting me know about it; because I'm always rescheduling stuff. Only a few more days until seniors are out of Concord, can't wait for it. I think I'm doing bad in all of my classes. I don't understand anything we're doing in math, and that makes me mad because I was understanding everything up until now. I have six finals to take, that's a pain. Aight, well I have nothing else to say, so I'm out. Later kids.

Current Mood: happy

Current Music: Jay- Z- Encore

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May. 8th, 2004

09:01 pm - Learning to breathe...

Today was a very weird day. I had a game today, I was actually allowed to play for the first time in a while. I got some play time, so it was cool. I went up to Best Buy cause they called my house while I was at the game to reschedule my interview, and my dad told them monday, but I can't do it monday; cause it's the last game of the season on monday. So, it'll probably be tuesday. I like someone, and I know I always tell people to go after whoever they like, and let them know how you feel, but I can never do that for myself. I don't know the situation w/ this person, so I don't really know what to do...I'm thinking about telling her, but I'm nervous about her reaction. I think I get along w/ her well, but I don't know if she'd go for the idea of me and her. Uhh...only a lil bit left until we graduate. I'm gonna miss all the good times and the cool people @ Concord. I know everyone has their ups and downs in highschool, but when you're gone, we'll only remember the good times and we'll miss it. Ok, well i'm out, later

Current Mood: blah

Current Music: Pete Yorn- Life on a chain

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May. 6th, 2004

06:04 pm - I aint neva going back...

Hey, it's been a while since i've done this, let's see if I remember how. I didn't go to school today, because I had to go to court for my underage consumption thing. I was really nervous about it, because I didn't know what to expect. My dad and I went up there, and I saw Mr. Harvey and Kyle, and Bryan H. and the rest of the gang. There were a lot of people there. It took forever and a day for the process. The good thing was that I didn't have to go before a judge. Most of us went straight to the arbitrary people, and they told us the conditions and all, and gave us a choice in our punishments. I have to do 20 hours of community service, write a letter of apology to my dad, and have an evaluation done to make sure I don't have an alcohol problem. I'm glad, that's the only punishment I recieved. I was just glad that I didn't have to pay a huge fine. I am able to play lacrosse on saturday, my first game in a while. It's an away game vs. Hodgeson. If you really love me, you will drive up to Hodgeson to cheer me on whilst I play. I have a job interview tommorrow at Best Buy, AGAIN!! I don't really want to work there that much, but it'll be nice to make some money. I don't know how much longer I'll be grounded for, but my dad will be on me about where I go if I do get to leave. Supposedly he'll buy me a car if I get a job, so I can commute next year, I have to pay for insurance though. I'm going to U of D on the associate of arts program, which is basically the parrell program. I'll be commuting to Del-Tech for the first two years, and then I'll be on the main campus junior year. I'm not going to a lot of things this year like prom and senior week, but I am looking for to sixflags. I haven't been on rollercoasters in the longest time, I can't wait to go. I probably missed a crap load of work today, especially during math. On another note, life overall is pretty good, I'm happy for the most part and just trying to take things a day at a time. Aight, well i'm off, I shall return later.

Current Mood: relieved

Current Music: Black Eyed Peas- Hey mama

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May. 1st, 2004

Apr. 22nd, 2004

09:14 pm - Gredenken...

Today was just another day at school, nothing really exciting happened. I can actually go to practice tommorrow, but I still can't play in any games until May 7th. I'm just glad I can go to practice, I'm starting to get lax withdrawals. It sucks that I can't play in any games though, I'm missing all the easy games I should be scoring like ten goals in. I went to watch the game against St. Mark's today. It was a tough game, St. Mark's kids were playing dirty though. There was this old guy in the stands cheering them on, and I wanted to just drop kick him, he was so annoying. Uhh...no senior week for Courie, it's all good though, I don't really care that much. The boys are planning to kidnap me and take me down there anyway. There is this girl that is kinda growing on me, and I kind of like her; but I've been getting these feelings for a girl I liked a little while ago but I couldn't have her. I'm gonna focus on the more recent one though. Uhh...Aight, i'm outtie, later.

Current Mood: okay

Current Music: Incubus- Nice to know you

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Apr. 20th, 2004

09:33 pm - No grip...

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I don't really like the person I'm becoming. Before spring break, I thought I had a pretty good grip on the way I was dealing w/ school and the way everything was going. Now, I don't think I have any grip whatsoever. Everything seems to be going down hill, and I'm just fucking up left and right. I don't think it's senioritis, because I had that earlier in the year, and I thought I recovered from it. I don't know what kind of future I'm going to have, and that seriously scares me. Sometimes I wish I weren't around or just didn't exist, because that would make life easier on the people around me; especially for my dad. I...I don't know anymore. I do what to wish the people who are going on the Florida trip tommorrow, and happy and safe trip. Be good down there. I also just want to say to all my friends, thanks for always being there for me, and I love you guys. Later kids.

Current Mood: blank

Current Music: Nine Days- Absolutely

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Apr. 12th, 2004

09:03 pm - Rainy monday...

Hey, I'm really getting tired of this rain now. I haven't been able to go outside. No one seems to be home or they're doing something, or they don't feel like doing anything. I have practice tommorrow morning, but I don't think I'll be able to make it there, because I have no way of getting up there. My dad is leaving tommorrow evening for Florida, he's not coming back until Sunday evening. I plan on some kind of mischief, but hopefully nothing that will cost me $900 again like last time. Being that he's out, hopefully some people can come over and just chill or whatever. If anyone out there wants to hang out, just let me know. I'll make plans for it and everything. Later Peoples.

Current Mood: bored

Current Music: Busta Ryhmes- Make it clap

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Apr. 11th, 2004

09:07 pm - Easter sunday...

Hey, it's your boy wonder returning to say, "hey". Hey, it's spring break, and I'm finally getting some time to relax and catch up on some sleep. So far, mission accomplished! Last night I went to the movies w/ some people, it was cool. We saw, "The Girl Next Door". It was a good movie. I got carded for the first time ever, cause God knows I don't look like I'm old enough. It's all good, everyone else got carded. We went to charcoal pit afterwards, and I saw some young ass fat girls, w/ some short skirts on, it was nasty; and I mean their skirts were extremely short, I could see and egg coming down the fullopian tube. I have some practices this week, so that should be fun. If anyone wants to chill this week, just let me know and we'll get that going. Aight, well i'm off, later kids.

Current Mood: weird

Current Music: Incubus- Agoraphobia

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Apr. 5th, 2004

09:03 pm - Calastenics...

Hey, this daylight savings time crap is throwing me off. I woke up late today, but it was all good, cause I was having a wonderful hair day; and yes I do have hair, for all you smart ass haters out there. Today wasn't that bad of a day at all. Mrs. Wilcox wasn't here first period, so I didn't have to listen to her early in the morning, rambling about something she'd have to reteach the next day cause no one would be listening. Spanish was ironically in spanish. English was boring as usual. AP Euro was as mundane as always. Physics was interesting. I had the chance to almost hit myself in the face w/ a bowling balling suspended from a rope, and then I went up into the ceiling using the rope, and pulley system; which is a basic machine or something. 62 X 10? Mickey,"620", lol no mickey, we're waiting for someone to say the exponent, lol. Good times. Last period was cool. I talked to Allison in the hall for most of it. Practice was a lil bit hard. We did a lot of running, and we haven't really ran like that in a long time. Eh, i'm out, later.

Current Mood: calm

Current Music: Maroon 5- love has taken it's toll?...

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